Ok days and Bad days

I personally have to admit something.  I honestly don’t know what a good day is.  I know the definition of good, but for the past 20 years, I’ve numbed every thought and feeling that could possibly be numbed.  This past week has been extremely draining.  I have struggled with meals, I’ve broke down and cried…

A Letter to Those Who Say I Make Them Feel Fat

*This post is by Jess!  Thanks Jess!*   “If you think you’re fat then you must think I’m huge.” No. Stop. Please don’t begin to view yourself as fat because of my distorted view of myself. My body dysmorphia only affects the way I see myself. I see you just as you are. And I…

We Can Hurt Together – Sia

Good day people!  I found this song by Sia, and let me tell you, we are all in this boat, if you need support reach out.  Leave a comment, and I will respond.  Just know that you aren’t alone.  You are worth being cared for!

Addiction and Eating Disorders

*Today’s post is buy another MP family member.  We’ve cried, we’ve laughed, and we’ve loved on Wrangler.  Amanda is a very strong person, and I am so glad that I have her in my life.* I am an addict. I realized that pretty young. When other kids were sneaking a couple hits off a cigarette,…

Treatment is the easy part…

*Like I have mentioned before, I have friends that are contributing to the blog in hopes that we are able to impact peoples lives, and hopefully be able to help someone.  I think that when we have other peoples perspective on eating disorders and related mental illnesses, we are able to reach more people.  The…

A day in the life at Kirkwood

Treatment for an eating disorder is not glamorous, and you definitely don’t go there just to rest and to take a break from life.  We bare our souls, constantly eat when we are told, and get a 30 minute walk if it isn’t too hot/cold. Every morning we got a wake up call at 6…

My First Day at McCallum

Even though its been almost 5 months since I was admitted into McCallum Place in Kirkwood, MO, I can still remember it like it was yesterday.  In the days that lead up to my admission at McCallum, there was a whirlwind of things that had to be done, from putting in my medical leave at…

What does an eating disorder look like?

Tonight I bring you a blog post that was written by a friend from treatment, Jess!  She was always quiet and I even serenaded her one afternoon after lunch!  She wrote what an eating disorder looks like to her!  Jess, this is simply amazing!  You are a wonderful person!   I am so glad that…

Empty. Worthless. Shame. Guilt.

*Tonight I bring you this harsh truth from Toots (her name has been changed at her request).  It brought tears to my eyes to read, to know that she is struggling and feels so alienated.  Toots, I am struggling at this very moment, I think I end up trying to convince myself that I’m okay….

Gaining Weight is COOL!

*Today we have another post from Kat!  If you want honesty, Kat is going to bring it!  Her story is so…wow that is all I can say.  I think ultimately we just want to be able to help someone, somehow.  Thank you Kat for opening up and letting me in!*   Gaining weight is about…

Daring Greatly part 2

You might be thinking, hey so why are you talking about vulnerability so much?  The answer is this, BOTH men AND women experience vulnerability and shame.  You see vulnerability and shame live in the same arena.  This is usually because when you put yourself out there to people and are vulnerable, and however it is…